::wHy LiE?::

Ever feel like u want to scream at the top of your lungs?
Of course u do, we have all felt it. that’s my exact feeling right now, as I sit here on my black leather sofa in LoNdoN!!!, some where I have always wanted to be, I should be at the nearest bar, or out on a double decker somewhere, instead I am praying that all this frustration that I am enduring doesn’t affect my trip, maybe not my trip but it def have affected my day… Thinking about people that could care less if I was around or not…the story of my life as this circle repeats itself time after time

Why is it so hard for people to tell the truth? Especially when they know that the lie isn’t good enough to sound true,. Not wanting to hurt you could be the reason, right? No I think that excuse is over used I mean truthfully, if they already did the damage the truth cant hurt more than the pain you have already endured for it, or could it? I see it as the final piece to that annoying and time consuming 1000 piece puzzle you have been trying to finish for a while know, happy you finally finished, but now that your done what do u do? Walk away, u let go, no matter how hard, believe you can do it, but u and I both know that if you don’t get that puzzle finished , feeling accomplished doesn’t exist, getting that answer will tell all.

The truth is necessary to help u move on, to make you see how much of an ass he really is, not saying that all the good times should be forgotten either… To reminisce about the good times is hard when your trying to put what u once had with him six feet under.
Its so interesting to me that the truth can hold so much power over someone, sometimes its staring u in the face and to look away from it is so much easier, save it for another day, when that day finally comes, reality smacks you in the face, because it was one thing u tried to cover and it didn’t work.
Too confused and upset to finish maybe some other time…even that deep breathe that usually works for a second isn’t helping,
I wont cry, he doesn’t deserve it. As I try not to, I cant help it, here it comes, thanks its funny how I never knew u could have so much power over me, as that first tear rolls down my cheek.

SadLy UnexpLAinaBle

Feel like your trapped, no where to turn and no one to run to?!? The person that u want to run to isn’t available with the open arms that u want, and getting them to be is an impossibility. To u they are the only one that can help this feeling. It isn’t fair is all your thinking, you want them and because u do u believe u deserve it, but do u?
Its so complicated and I don’t want to be cliché and say that its because they aren’t around anymore, is the reason you are head over heels for them. Wanting them to call, and stalk you like they used to, its not going to happen, so the roles verse. You don’t understand the feeling and u want it to end , but it isn’t, its actually getting worse. You start to notice that this is exactly how the circle in your life works, the de javu and the reoccurring daydreams start to take over your mind.
Y do you live to want something when its not available to u the way it should be?? Frustrated. Confused and most importantly feeling unwanted, your too late. Learning that in life you should always look at a situation on both ends and understand that where you are now is where they have always been when it came down to what they once wanted…you

HoW do We MiSs???

As i sat on the phone wit one i consider to be my bffl lol, i was listenin to Trey Songz and as the lyrics seemed to zone me out from our conversation, all i heard was the chorus " I cant stop missin U". And we all kno about those awkward moments of silence that occur every so often when ur on the fone, we cleary were both in our own worlds...

I soon thought to myself, hOw Do wE miSs?!?

wat causes one to miss someone, I know its a weird question to ask since its something that people most of the time say witout thinkin twice. So is it jus cuz that person isnt present, or is it cuz they said it first and u would feel bad if u dont say it back, and wat gets me the most is how can u miss sumone so much that its all that goes through ur mind and when they were there it wasnt ever a problem... is it possible 2 miss sumone wen they are around, or is that seem crazy to say or is it because it isnt thought of that way??

thats my rAndOmnESs for one day, hope i doNt confuse anYone 2 much...jus wonderIn!