Monday, May 12, 2008

Is aNyboDy LiSteNinG...

I sit here pondering what has become of me, not trying to scary anyone but i leave and come back four months later and everything has changed... 
people,situations,problems, you name it ill tell you how its different now. I was in a standstill, in another world, this world where i have always felt i belonged to. 
A feeling can be so wrong,making you believe the imaginable. In Europe doing things that many can only think of and all i wanted was to be at this place i was running from all along, this place i had just left... I thought i would leave and have the time of my life and everything would be solved when i got back, who was i kidding. The changes are unexplainable, unbelievable and sadly all true. I wonder when will i wake up from this dream called reality, its hard and im trying, but i cant. Trying to pick up where i left is hard since that life has moved on without me. I come back with all hopes of what this summer will hold, but as soon as i left the airport the air that i couldnt wait to inhale, seemed polluted. As i took the highly anticipated breathe of home, I could already tell things werent the way i left it.
How selfish of me to think that everything would be the same, things change daily, why wouldnt they change in four months? As i write this i think to myself why do i only write when im sad or angry,
well i think ive figured it out, its easier to talk about the good, thats y i wonder is anybody listening when its about the bad?